When I Close My Eyes...

Sometimes, when i close my eyes, my perception of dreaming and reality become one and i have difficulty in separating the two. Do i worry about this? Not really. I believe that all our deep passions, whether they are ones filled with grief or desire, come out while we are sleeping. It's with this thought in mind that i wrote the following feelings down.

why is it when i close my eyes
that i see you better
hear you clearer
feel your touch as if you were by?

why is it when i close my eyes
that the image i see
fills myself with light
and the darkness disappears
and you are once again here?

why is it when i close my eyes
i can smell you near
i can sense you by
but only for a moment...
and then once again
just like you always do..
i can feel you disappear?

why is it when i close my eyes
the feeling of loss comes back
and the wind of sadness lightly touches my lips
and enters back inside myself?

why is it when i close my eyes
that all these feelings come back to life..
come back to visit me every evening
every dawn...
and the question of why remains
til the next time...
til the next evening...
til tomorrow...
til forever?

why is it when i open my eyes
i see the real light around me again
but the darkness inside me returns...
your voice inside me hushes again
til all that is heard is quietness..
my loneliness...
my emptiness?

why is it when i open my eyes
i feel what i pretend to feel...
see what i pretend to see ...
live how i pretend to live...
til its time once again..
to close my eyes..
and see you once again here..
between reality and dreaming..
for a single moment..
a single flash?

i wonder when i will finally wake up...